A few months ago I contacted Early Start because I felt Levi wasn't talking as well as he should be. He's very difficult to understand and I'm always translating for him. They finally came out this week to do a full evaluation on him. Now that he has diabetes, I feel like I need to get him talking! I need to know if he doesn't feel well or if his tummy aches. They tested him for over an hour and he does qualify for services. It's kind of a mixed feeling. On one hand, I'm glad he will get the help that he needs. But on the otherhand, he needed to be in the bottom 33% to qualify so I wish he wasn't.
I wish I could just hug him and hold him tight. I wish diabetes never came into our lives. I wish he didn't need speech therapy. It's just one more thing that takes away from his play time. He is such a happy little guy. Don't you wish you could just wave your magic wand and make it all better?
Yesterday Levi's numbers were all over the board. I'm learning that I need to be much better at counting carbs. I counted his carbs with dinner and then gave him his shot. My older son had cub scouts last night and I needed to provide cookies for the meeting. I couldn't not give one to Levi! And I didn't have the heart to give him another shot. At bedtime his numbers were in the 300s. I realized that I need to be stronger. That's an area I'm clearly struggling with. Shots are still so traumatic for us. He cries so hard and I have to hold him down. I finally got off my arse and filled out the pump paperwork and sent it to Medtronic. I might as well start the ball going.
I feel so behind on everything. Things are slipping through the cracks. I haven't been working with my kinder on his work, we haven't been doing all the fun xmas stuff and in general, I feel like diabetes has taken over our life. Maybe my new year's resolution will be to take our life back.
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